Crap, it's just begun...

DAY 3   DAY 1:


Technically speaking, it's day 3 of 40.  However, it is Day 1 of the "transformation phase" i.e. the 500 calorie diet portion. Last night, I dreamt that I cheated on my first day by eating several handfuls of Lucky Charms, in particular focusing on the marshmallows, while shopping at a Home Depot???.. Odd, huh? What does that mean exactly? Perhaps that I am scared I will fail and disappoint myself and others, not to mention waste a lot of money!


Yet I haven't cheated today, but I am finding it much more challenging than expected. During the consultation, I was told "You won't be hungry on this diet..."..... Me and my growling tummy would like to disagree. I feel very lethargic, tired, and hungry.


So far today, I have consumed:
2 cups of black tea 
1 very tasteless orange
100 grams of Tuna fillet with one fresh garlic clove, salt and pepper
165 grams of cabbage with cumin and curry powder and pinch of salt.
1 medium apple
Tonight, I will have 100 grams of chicken and two vine tomatoes.


I suppose I was expecting to feel more "satisfied" having had the shot, and not be hungry. However, I've only had the shot 3 days, so I will just have to give it some time.  There is already a nagging feeling that I will not do a second cycle of the HCG shot. I am very eager to get these remaining 37 days behind me and start exercising and weight lifting, and of course not having quite as restrictive diet.  I realize it is very premature and things could get better, but I've had headaches each day as they said I might the first week, but I notice they lessen if I constantly drink water.  160 oz. is the minimum amount of water and that is a lot of water and that is a challenge in itself.


I've decided to abstain from a few other things as well during this next 5 weeks. I will not purchase make-up during this time, a recent obsession... again. I will not purchase DVDs or unnecessary items. I will focus on my goal, and the great things in store this autumn.  In September, Zach and I will go somewhere to celebrate his B-day, and in October, I will be going to see some German friends in Germany.  I want to be significantly thinner by then!


I will take this one day at a time...